Today as I was working out using the Wii and WiiFit program, I got this idea- hey I should have my husband grab a few photos of me while I do this. I was thinking- oh this will be great I can show how the baby watches from his Pack-n-Play and the older boys watch and try to do it along with me.
Instead what I got was tears, maybe it’s because he took the photo with my cell phone, maybe it’s just another excuse to tell myself that I’m not fat it’s just the camera. Yeah, uh hello! I just wanted to cry, seriously. I really do and I have a few tears now. But you know if a famous model and mother can print a picture of herself at her worst then why can’t I? I know my picture is not going to be seen by the millions that hers was- but still its so hard.
In another way it should be a great motivator knowing that these are my BEFORE pictures and there is an after to come. Now if it takes me 3 years or 6 months to get to that after at least the silver lining is that there IS an after. Julie of Momspective was able to loose 60 lbs using just the WiiFit and a moderated eating habit. If she can do it- then why can’t I?
So here it is:
Yes, I am working out in jeans, a shirt…and flip flops! I need to get myself some proper workout clothes. Which brings me to my next question.
Where do I find some nice workout clothes for plus size woman that don’t want to feel crappy while trying to make themselves better?
I also need to get some shoes that will be good for walking and for doing some active work as soon I’ll be joining Julie and many others for the 30-Day EA Sports Active Challenge on June 1st. You know this is going to go fast so here is a link to pre-order it today… EA Sports Active
I still am in shock over my picture…I know I’m big. I know I am. But seeing that picture and having to own that yes- I LET myself get this way. It wasn’t my mom, my sister, the deli shop, my husband, or anything- it was me. It’s so easy to say “Okay so DO something about it” but doing is HARD. It’s so hard when that Easter candy is letting it’s aroma’s drift their way to me. It’s hard when there is ice cream in the freezer and you just hate for it to go to waste.
I am an engine… I think I can, I think I can
Taking action like this and getting support from friends are signs that you’re going to rock this challenge!
July 11th, 2009 at 11:10 pm
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